Places, Places, Places

Today while watching the latest episode of The Bachelor (yes, I'm addicted and no, I'm not ashamed) I paid extra attention to where all of the girls were from. I started to think about where I am from, and I realized, I'm not really from anywhere. The longest I have lived anywhere collectively is California, if you combine two different groupings of time - and that only amounts to 5 years. 5 years only amounts to about 22.7% of my life. Where have I been the other 78.3%? And why does it matter where I have been?

The places I have lived have not made me who I am, the experiences I have had make me who I am. The only real roots that I can pinpoint are my family roots. My parents, sisters, cousins, grandparents and friends are really where I am from. Not California. People. Lately I have realized how important it is to associate with people that make you feel good about yourself, that make you want to be a better person, with people that love you. Praise the heavens for the great people I know, for they are who I am!

This picture is horrendously old, but I love it nevertheless.

Life!

It's been a while.

Just checking in to say : Life is good, life is grand. Life is crazy.

Some of my new favorite things are:

A beautiful green scarf my sister was going to throw away, which I resurrected. Turns out it is from Lebanon and is completely gorgeous. I wear it way too often, but I don't care, because we are in love.

Ehow. They have everything you could ever want to learn on there, from how to conceive twins, to how to make a video game. It amazes me every time.

This cat video

Chocolate Mint Soy Milk!!! I bought four at the store just because I love it so much.

Anything and everything minty.

Glee Christmas Album-- I know, I know.

Life! Life is good. I've got rhythm, I've got music, who could ask for anything more?

No Way Jose

Fellow friends and readers, I have been severely humbled.

I am a pretty confident girl, and I was feeling pretty good about my intelligence and my ability to get into grad school. And then I was reminded of this little thing that I need to do.

It's called...the GRE. But I feel like its taunting me all of the time, saying "Get Real, Emotional wreck!" I can't do it. I'm not that smart. All I do is make crap up, support it with big words and random sentences, and then act intelligent when I say it.

I was feeling pretty good about myself until the panic ensued. Yes, I know it's not that big of a deal, but it is to me! I want a good score to prove to myself that I can do this!!

I should be studying right now, but I'm not!! Ahhhh!!!

I bought a GRE book and the one reason I chose that book is because the first word in the entire book, in big letters is "Relax"! It was exactly what I needed.



Look at that girl!! Why is she so calm?? That's definitely not fair! Or REALISTIC!!

Ok, freak out over. :)

Obsessed

You know that Obsessed song by Mariah Carey?

First, I love it.

Second, here is a list of things I am currently mild to moderately obsessed with:

TOMS - I want every color. My next purchase will be red. Then some boots. I just want every kind, they are so comfortable!

Lady Gaga - I just can't get enough of her cd. Seriously, I blame Lauren for this one for sending it to me. I mean, I did ask her for it, but it is just so good! Plus, she is fierce.

Harry Potter - This isn't recent. Just everlasting.

My blog stats.

ALL TIME WHO HAS LOOKED AT MY BLOG:
United States 1,069
Canada 31
United Kingdom 20
Australia 12
Mongolia 10
Germany 9
Poland 6
Saudi Arabia 6
China 4
France 3

Cool, right? I mean, I had no idea people in other countries saw this! Here's to you all you people in Mongolia! (Yes averyl, this is inspired by your russia blog) Also, those stats have to be wrong, because one of my blogs only got 3 views, but has 6 comments?? How is that possible? AND the blog that the most people viewed, was also the blog with ZERO comments! What's up with that people? I was ashamed of that blog for so long because I thought no one liked it, but alas! You did! Tell me when you like something next time, ok? Thanks ;)

Tom Hanks' Voice - It is just so nice and pleasant to listen to, right? Not only that, I just really like Tom Hanks.

Joe Jonas allegedly getting rid of his purity ring because he is dating Ashley Greene from Twilight - Seriously. I always knew Joe would be the wild one. No wonder Nick has recently become my favorite Jonas ;) Also, listen to this " 'When they’re not traveling, they’re basically living together,' a Jonas camp snitch told Life & Style Weekly last Wednesday" See, hard evidence right??

Justin Timberlake - also forever lasting. But especially renewed since The Social Network, which I have yet to see but have heard amazing things about! And allegedly JT might be up for an OSCAR NOMINATION! How incredible would that be? I mean, I want to dance again, but go JT!



The End. <3

LOVE

Hi.

All I want to talk about today is one person.

They are very near and dear to my heart, even though others may find them strange.

That person is AUSTIN SCARLETT

Austin was on the first season of Project Runway and got fourth place, but he should have won.

I love Austin because:

He is always classy and eloquent

He is always put together



He has impeccable taste

He is not over bearing, even though it looks like he would be



He is so nice

He is kind - which is so different than nice



He is an amazing designer

He is funny


Look at this dress he made out of corn husks! It was the first PR challenge ever and he was disappointed with how it turned out, but he won the challenge anyway.

He is crazy passionate

He has tons of charisma



He is eccentric

He is so pretty

He has so much confidence



He is FABULOUS

I just want to hug him

He is the cutest thing I've ever seen

And the number one reason I love him is that he is always one hundred percent himself. He wears outrageous clothing, he wears makeup, he dresses a little bit like an older woman, and he is more well-groomed than any woman I have ever seen, and he doesn't care. He is so real it is invigorating.

Also, he is on this show with this guy: Santino, who was on PR season 2. And they get along even though they literally look like salt and pepper.

Long Time Gone

It's been soo long! Sorry. Mostly to Rachel because you said you wanted me to blog :)

I don't have a lot of time, but I want to talk about GLEE!!!

As most of you know, the new season started last night and I had the privilege to watch it tonight with a favorite sister wife of mine ;)

Anyways, mostly I just wanted to talk about how happy it makes me. It is so super funny and hilarious and I just want to dance and sing and be happy all day long.

This season guest stars are Britney Spears, Justin Timberlake, and John Stamos! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

Basically I cannot explain my love for Glee.

The end.

Liminal Spaces

I love synthesis, amalgamation, the yin-yang, basically anything that has two contrasting ideas and plays them against each other to create something profound and better than the two existing halves on their own.

What I do NOT like however, is liminal spaces. The no mans land between ideas, places, thoughts, etc. There is no synthesis in liminal spaces, it physically cannot be. Being on the threshold nothing is real anymore. (At least thats how it feels to me). Grooms typically carry their bride through the first threshold because it is a myth that devils hang out in doorways. I definitely agree that devils stay in liminal spaces. Hit you while you're alone and trapped kind of a deal. I feel like for SO long I have been in this liminal space, I'm a post-grad living in an undergrad world, I know what I want to do with my life but have made no recordable progress made to achieving my goals, I have lost two of my roommates and now am waiting for the others to get here, I have a job, but am anxiously awaiting other and better opportunities. I used to love liminal spaces, I thought they were the in-between area before you move on to a world of possibilities. But now I feel like Winnie the Pooh, half way in Rabbits house and half way in the outside world - completely and utterly stuck.


Look at his face, clearly liminal spaces are not a fun place to stay.

Once I called liminal spaces "scary and exciting". But now I have lost all of my excitement and fear has taken over completely. I feel exactly like this: "One's sense of identity dissolves to some extent, bringing about disorientation." Thank you wikipedia for that.

Lastly, I do LOVE thinking, writing, and reading about liminal spaces, as long as I do not have to face my own. :)